Yesterday, my blog stats jumped five folds. Wow. That's thanks to Beth from 123 Homeschool 4 Me who has very kindly listed this blog as one of her 13 Homeschool Blogs You Should be Reading! I feel it to be a great honour to be publicly mentioned in a positive way by anyone, so I want to take this opportunity to thank Beth and everyone who finds what I write here to be useful.
As we approach our end of year (we plan to start our summer at the end of July), I have been reflecting quite a bit on the school year. To put it very briefly, I don't feel very successful about this past year, and I am working on plans to bring about positive changes in the new academic year. Therefore, to find this blog on the list in the midst of my internal struggle to find a solution for what I would consider a 'better' year starting in September, compels me to write this post in order to clarify any romantic/idealistic ideas that anyone might have of how life is around here.
Just to set the record straight:
1. This blog is a record of one narrow aspect of my life, i.e. the more academic aspects of homeschooling my son. It is a one dimensional view. I don't set out to present myself, or my family, or my approach to be perfect, and would be disappointed for anyone to read this blog then go away thinking that I have it all together or all figured out. As it is, I regard homeschooling as equivalent to my full-time day job, and I put my best efforts into it. I record and share what works for us in terms of academic pursuits. I work 'behind the scenes', so to speak, to resolve challenges and personal struggles but I don't feel the need to voice my grievances in public because they are essentially private matters to be resolved privately.
2. I think motherhood is a very challenging job. Add homeschooling to that, and the pressure to do well instantly doubles. If you read this blog and it looks like my homeschool runs smoothly and effortlessly all the time, just know that it takes constant, tremendous amount of work to get here and we are not at where we want to be yet.
3. My son is a very spirited child. Like everyone else, his personal characteristics can be interpreted either as strengths or weaknesses depending on the situation he is in. A child who knows his mind is very rarely one who is also readily compliant or eager to please anyone else. As his mother and his primary teacher, it is my duty and responsibility to assist him to build on his strengths and to overcome his weaknesses. This aspect of character building is very seldom mentioned on the blog because: (1) I don't have any curriculum to recommend, and (2) it is a constant work-in-progress so I don't feel I can give any advice.
On that note, I want to let you know that I will not be writing for the rest of the Homeschool Help series. I have been thinking about it alongside with all the points mentioned above, and I don't feel that I can contribute adequately to the rest of the topics. Nonetheless, I will continue to support the series by reading the insightful posts written by the other contributors.